November 9, 2014
Alone, Corporate, dreams, Heartbreaks, Life, Love, Office, Organizations, Philosophy, Relationships, Work
Ever wondered how philosophical we get when we are lone and start pondering about where our life is going? You suddenly decide that you have had enough, now you won’t be a pushover , you will stand up to your peers and boss at work, you will not fall for the wrong boy/girl again, you will not give the power to anyone to break your heart!! You are motivated, its a realisation, an epiphany and you are driven by it. All is good and hunky dory .
Then, comes the time when after a few days , maybe even months, strikes another epiphany!! Its the epiphany of all epiphanies;“You can’t change who you are, you may alter a few things, lessen a few things or so, but you are who you are!!” This is my point of view, I might be clearly wrong. But hey, I am a human after all,being wrong is like a trait I guess.
After a heart break, we suffer, we swear never to fall for the same shit(apologies for the language) again. But what happens later?! We fall for the same shit again!! And again !! We might want to stand up to our boss at work. We might even do it once, and feel really good about it. But later, maybe in some other organisation or with some other boss, you might be back to square one. I am not saying we cannot stick to our decisions. I am simply putting light on the fact which I stumbled upon while pondering philosophically over a cup of tea on a Sunday morning, we get too many realisations, we even plan to stick to them but sooner or later, we get back to where we started!!
I hope that we all stick to what we decide and we don’t need new epiphanies every now and then to get us on track!!
October 5, 2014
Alone, Belief, blogging, Broken heart, Depression, Faith, Life, Love, Past, Poetry, Pray, Reality, Relationships, Tears
I was told its going to be easy,
Falling in love ain’t that cheesy.
Its going to be flowers and hearts,
Once you are together , you never part.
I was told life would be all huky dory,
With tiny ups and downs but at the end glory!!
Blind faith , complete trust;
It has made me too cussed.
I was told it was all going to be ok,
That I should keep faith and I should pray.
It is a phase, this too shall pass,
My faith has been embedded by shards of broken past.
September 20, 2014
blogging, Books, bookworm, Corporate Life, Guilt, Helpless, inspirational, Office, passion, Reading, Reality, Slave, Times, work Culture, writing
Ever since I joined the league of those people who earn, I must say times flies by and I have no recollection of it. I mean, weeks go by, and all I do is wake up- go to work – come back and fall asleep in front of the TV.
I am a being passionate about reading and writing. But even since the meteorite of office culture hit me, I hardly have thought of touching my bookshelf or checking my blog. How should I expiate this is beyond me?! I do enjoy my work, but I am slowly killing the passion which truly drives me. Which has kept me going. A book in the hand and coffee in the other is my idea of perfection. But somehow , being a corporate slave makes me think I am standing on a highway and times passes like one of the movie scenes of The Fast and the Furious with Toretto driving like the wind.
Occasionally partying does let me get the edge off, but not as mush as the pure bliss which I get when I do what I ardently love- READ. The guilt has been eating me from inside. How do I expiate it, please let me know. And for all this who work, remember:
“All work and no play, will make you a pathetic corporate slave. “
August 27, 2014
Ambitions, blogging, Childish, Depression, dreams, Empowerent, Girl, happiness, Inspiration, Mood swings, motivation, sadness, Teenage, Teenagers, Woman
Woman today are strong, independent and can take care of themselves . I feel proud to be have come across such woman in my life. But something very peculiar also came to my notice.
No matter how content and mature the woman is, there is always a “silly girl” inside every woman. She might be a CEO or a school principle or a tom boy who doesn’t depend on anyone else, but deep down she too has this silly girl inside who has dreams and wishes which when not fulfilled breaks her heart. The silly girl wants to be pampered, to be taken care of, to be told she is beautiful. The silly girl wants to find the man of her dreams, she too wants a happily ever after.
Most of the woman do not even realise that this girl exists within. They are confused as to why are they feeling this way? Why are they upset if their male friend whom they like (unknowingly ) doesn’t pay attention to their new haircut or isn’t the first one to call them on their birthday? Why do they have this tumultuous relationship with the desires within ? The silly girl tries to come forth, sometimes she manages to scrap the surface for a while, those are the times when one is vulnerable.
The silly girl is sometimes childish and naive. She is also moody. We women are confused sometimes as we do not know what we are mad about!! That is indeed frustrating for us and the people around us .Well, ask the silly little girl inside you, she will have a list of reasons prepared for you in a jiffy.
Sometimes listen to the silly girl , let her breathe a little. She can be the cause of your happiness. Let go and give the reins to the silly girl for a short while, it can lead to a long lasting positive effect.
July 29, 2014
blogging, Depression, Heart, Heartbreak, Lost, Love, Pain, Poetry, Relationships, Tears
I was innocent ,
I was pure.
I believed in love,
I was sure.
You came along,
Like a hurricane.
I did not think twice,
I took whatever came.
Now there is no drizzle,
There is no rain.
All that is left is my tainted heart,
All it feels is pain.
Tainted heart is all I have,
All hopes lost with no dreams.
Tainted heart is all I have,
Now even my silence screams.
July 8, 2014
Cry, Depression, Family, friends, happy, Heart Breaks, Loneliness, Love, marriage, Oblivion, Perfection, Relationships, Tears
Her hands are shaking, her face is warm. She is about to cry but not just yet.She cannot cry because then the people around her will fuss and make a big deal out of it. Why is she crying? She has everything which a person can ask for. She has a god job, amazing friends and a family. Then why??
She looks around for an opening. She sees the door to the emergency staircase. She rushes there with her head down and walks through it.Siting on the stairs, she lets out a stifled cry. And warm tears come swarming. Why the tears you may ask?
She cries because she is alone. She feels a void which no one can fill. She cries out loud in the void. Yes she has friends who can comfort her. But if they do comfort her then why does she feel this void? That means there is something left. This emptiness is like tiny pin pricks which she feels now and then .
Many people in this very confusing world of ours feel this void. They might have perfect jobs, perfect family and friends to die for. Still they let out cries in the void. Not letting anyone else know about it. There are people who are happily married still they cry out loud in the void as there is something missing. It happens. There are times when you feel empty, staring in the void, thinking nothing. Yet the sadness which follows is inevitable. Loneliness is the virus which when attached to you, can’t be shaken off easily. even when you are surrounded by people, you are lonely.
Nobody can hear you. Cry out loud as much as you want. Nobody can hear you.