September 20, 2014
blogging, Books, bookworm, Corporate Life, Guilt, Helpless, inspirational, Office, passion, Reading, Reality, Slave, Times, work Culture, writing
Ever since I joined the league of those people who earn, I must say times flies by and I have no recollection of it. I mean, weeks go by, and all I do is wake up- go to work – come back and fall asleep in front of the TV.
I am a being passionate about reading and writing. But even since the meteorite of office culture hit me, I hardly have thought of touching my bookshelf or checking my blog. How should I expiate this is beyond me?! I do enjoy my work, but I am slowly killing the passion which truly drives me. Which has kept me going. A book in the hand and coffee in the other is my idea of perfection. But somehow , being a corporate slave makes me think I am standing on a highway and times passes like one of the movie scenes of The Fast and the Furious with Toretto driving like the wind.
Occasionally partying does let me get the edge off, but not as mush as the pure bliss which I get when I do what I ardently love- READ. The guilt has been eating me from inside. How do I expiate it, please let me know. And for all this who work, remember:
“All work and no play, will make you a pathetic corporate slave. “
August 27, 2014
Ambitions, blogging, Childish, Depression, dreams, Empowerent, Girl, happiness, Inspiration, Mood swings, motivation, sadness, Teenage, Teenagers, Woman
Woman today are strong, independent and can take care of themselves . I feel proud to be have come across such woman in my life. But something very peculiar also came to my notice.
No matter how content and mature the woman is, there is always a “silly girl” inside every woman. She might be a CEO or a school principle or a tom boy who doesn’t depend on anyone else, but deep down she too has this silly girl inside who has dreams and wishes which when not fulfilled breaks her heart. The silly girl wants to be pampered, to be taken care of, to be told she is beautiful. The silly girl wants to find the man of her dreams, she too wants a happily ever after.
Most of the woman do not even realise that this girl exists within. They are confused as to why are they feeling this way? Why are they upset if their male friend whom they like (unknowingly ) doesn’t pay attention to their new haircut or isn’t the first one to call them on their birthday? Why do they have this tumultuous relationship with the desires within ? The silly girl tries to come forth, sometimes she manages to scrap the surface for a while, those are the times when one is vulnerable.
The silly girl is sometimes childish and naive. She is also moody. We women are confused sometimes as we do not know what we are mad about!! That is indeed frustrating for us and the people around us .Well, ask the silly little girl inside you, she will have a list of reasons prepared for you in a jiffy.
Sometimes listen to the silly girl , let her breathe a little. She can be the cause of your happiness. Let go and give the reins to the silly girl for a short while, it can lead to a long lasting positive effect.
July 29, 2014
blogging, Depression, Heart, Heartbreak, Lost, Love, Pain, Poetry, Relationships, Tears
I was innocent ,
I was pure.
I believed in love,
I was sure.
You came along,
Like a hurricane.
I did not think twice,
I took whatever came.
Now there is no drizzle,
There is no rain.
All that is left is my tainted heart,
All it feels is pain.
Tainted heart is all I have,
All hopes lost with no dreams.
Tainted heart is all I have,
Now even my silence screams.
July 8, 2014
Cry, Depression, Family, friends, happy, Heart Breaks, Loneliness, Love, marriage, Oblivion, Perfection, Relationships, Tears
Her hands are shaking, her face is warm. She is about to cry but not just yet.She cannot cry because then the people around her will fuss and make a big deal out of it. Why is she crying? She has everything which a person can ask for. She has a god job, amazing friends and a family. Then why??
She looks around for an opening. She sees the door to the emergency staircase. She rushes there with her head down and walks through it.Siting on the stairs, she lets out a stifled cry. And warm tears come swarming. Why the tears you may ask?
She cries because she is alone. She feels a void which no one can fill. She cries out loud in the void. Yes she has friends who can comfort her. But if they do comfort her then why does she feel this void? That means there is something left. This emptiness is like tiny pin pricks which she feels now and then .
Many people in this very confusing world of ours feel this void. They might have perfect jobs, perfect family and friends to die for. Still they let out cries in the void. Not letting anyone else know about it. There are people who are happily married still they cry out loud in the void as there is something missing. It happens. There are times when you feel empty, staring in the void, thinking nothing. Yet the sadness which follows is inevitable. Loneliness is the virus which when attached to you, can’t be shaken off easily. even when you are surrounded by people, you are lonely.
Nobody can hear you. Cry out loud as much as you want. Nobody can hear you.
June 7, 2014
Ambitions, blogging, dreams, Engineers, Frozen, inspirational, inspiring, kids, Life, Lost, Motivatonal
We are humans. We tend to dream- thats no news. But what happens to those dreams? Do all of them come true? What about the ones which don’t come true?
In every phase of our lives, we have different dreams .As a child you might dream of flying like a bird or be Superman and save the world. As a teenager, you might dream of being the popular kid in school who everyone loves and follows. As a grown up, you want to land a good job, earn a lot of money and fame( and also have a gorgeous spouse) .
But between these big dreams there are tiny ones as well which get lost. I wouldn’t call them “Lost” , I would prefer that they are “Frozen”. A successful engineer might one day realise that even though he is satisfied with his current job and pay, he isn’t happy. Deep down, in his heart there lies a dream which is frozen . He once had a passion for music, but once the “Rush Hour” life took toll on him along with the family pressure and the ever growing competition, that dream froze . It still sits there , waiting to be unfrozen. There are many people, who after years of service and working, suddenly leave everything and do something totally opposite. That would be going after the frozen dream. Unfreeze it, take it to the next level. Its been sitting there, waiting for a chance.
Few people realise this too late, and a few lucky ones at the appropriate time. I just want to say that no matter how small the dream is, don’t let it just sit there. If you dared to dream , then at least dare to do something about it. Let it not be too late !! Unfreeze it .
May 11, 2014
blogging, childhood, children, happiness, inspirational, kids, Life, Love, mom, Mother, Mothers day
“Mom, where is my new watch?? I know I kept it here somewhere.”
“Mom, there is this boy I like. Please tell me what to do.”
“Mom, I am having a party for some friends. Please tell me how to arrange everything, the food , the music and all.”
“Mom, I told you not to come to my room. Please don’t touch my stuff!!!!! ” “By the way, you cleaned my room. It actually does look better( embarrassed ) ”
“Mom, I hate my friends. Nobody understands me . I don’t have anyone. You know what I am talking about right? ”
All our lives, we ask our mothers several questions. And astonishingly, she always has the answers. She never fails us . No matter how tuff we try to act, how independent we try to be, we always end up asking our mothers for help or advice. She knows it all. If you can’t do anything or find anything, she will definitely know . If you hide anything, she still knows. She is your mother. You are a part of her. How can she not know?
It scares me, thinking that one day when I become a mother, will I be half as good as my mother? I better be!!!!! But if I am not, I know where to turn for help. “Mom, can you please help me become a better mom to my kids!! “
She knows it all.